I was just told that my previous post was...ahem...a little...shocking? thought provoking? controversial?
I want to clarify.
Firstly, you can link back here to another post I wrote about this topic.
Now, let me explain a little more. I kind of pounded out the previous post and just hit publish without thinking of how it could be misconstrued.
I love my Dovalah more than live itself. He is my gift from G-d. He is magnificent. But he suffers every day, and mothers want nothing more than to take away the hurt from their children.
Selfishly, I wish I could be a "normal" mom, and not the person who people talk about. "Did you hear that Sara's son Dovi is in the hospital again?" "Did you hear that Sara's son Dovi's blood pressure is 8 million over 3 million?"
Now granted, I put myself out there with this lovely blog. But this blog is not called Sara's Life, it's called Dovi's Life. It was originally started because all my siblings live out of town and I got darn sick of telling the same Dovi medical information over and over. So the blog was born and has kinda grown from there.
But wanting Dovi to be healthy, and being at peace with the fact that G-d for some reason unbeknown to me wanted Dovi to have FD are two drastically different things.
I wish that he didn't have FD. I would give up ANYTHING, and I mean ANYTHING in my entire lifetime for him not to have FD. But that is not reality. He does have FD. And my wanting him not to have FD will not change that he does. I will never understand the why. But I can hate the what.
And that is fine with me.